Recently, I've been a lot worried about the people around me... The group I have started to hang out with... The group who I've grown too fond of to actually want it to break apart that I started thinking... Maybe it's not so good that I came after all since when I came along in their group... All hell started to break loose... Thinking back... It's probably my fault since before the only thing that was different was me being with them... So what do I do? What am I supposed to do? I don't want to be ignorant... Been having dreams about everyone split up and fighting and I don't know what to do... Sometimes I'd find myself waking up crying early in the morning...
I guess it's part of growing up, but I always suck at good-byes, because I hate letting go... So every time I get the chance of having a bit of fun with them I grab it. There are so few memories that I have made with my friends. I don't really want to waste it... Live like tomorrow is the end, as they say. So sometimes in someways I wanted to just bend the rules a bit so that I can look back and remember the awesome times I have with my friends. There is so much to do and so little time... The world is pretty much a small world if we don't give it time and effort to extend them... If we keep on being caged up... Nothing will come up from it right? And that would be just plain boring.
Someday soon I hope for a bit of freedom... And when that time comes... I wonder if I can still catch up to my friends who are already have theirs... I wonder if I really could go and walk with them side by side by then... But for now I have to be content and work my butt off to even come close to them. So wish me luck! >__<
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