A Heart Filled Confession

Somehow I feel lonely when I'm away from you...
It's kinda weird, I know.
Even though it's just been a few hours or maybe a day or two...
I feel as though it have been far longer than that...
I felt lonelier than before...
Reading our conversations again and again...
Somehow I knew I could trust you with the heart I've always protected so much...
I still believe in you that you're my "kind and gentle hero" ( 惠 杰 )...
So I hope even if it isn't right now that you'll be able to be happy...
I just wish soon you'll be able to smile again like you used to.
Though I'm not sure if my feelings are reaching you...
I'm happy that I've got you and sometimes I wonder if you like having me too...


なくもんか－いきものがかり or Nakumonka by Ikimono Gakari

Translation

“Hmm, I guess every single one of us is walking alone”
There’s no reason for us to reveal the loneliness we bear
As many more people walk further away

I became good at just putting on affable smiles as an adult
But it’s not what I imagined before
It’s supposed to be a stronger, gentler warmth

Someone’s reaching out to me, am I brave enough to grab their hand?
That small petty distance is always testing my meager heart

There’s a smile for every teardrop, yeah, I should realize that
But I always pretend when I’m with you, I can’t be honest with myself
Whether it’s sad or joyous, yeah, I want to be connected to you
That’s how we gather our hearts together, one by one

Failures, betrayals, bad news, I mix them all together and shield my heart
I pretended not to see, yeah, that’s how I was able to go on living
But I still don’t want to run away

The torrential rain is drowning out someone’s voice again
There you were, lost and embracing the same loneliness as me

I don’t know the right “answer” but I’m not giving up
Because you’re here and I’m here, our hearts need each other

“To understand each other we must forgive each other”
Even “confusion” and “fear” are a “part” of us
Let’s remember each and every single teardrop
Hey, I can laugh with you again

There’s a teardrop for every smile, yeah, I know that
But I’ll tell you even if my voice grows hoarse because I want you to know
If you cry for me, if you laugh for me, yeah, I know I’ll grow stronger
That’s how we connect our hearts together, one by one