Even though I know I'm a girl who can't seem to tell you up front how or what she actually feels.
I try to show it... And I hope it reaches you...
It is not that I doubt you... It is not that I doubt my feeling for you...
I don't but with all we've been through a lot of things had started to pop in my head.
My heart started to race...
What am I to you?
Am I as important as I think I am to you?
Am I just some other girl in your heart...?
Maybe just second best to you?
Do you think of me as you say you do?
Because I have no doubt you're taking care of me.
I have no doubt that you do love me...
But I wonder how much...
I wonder am I really worth it for you?
Are you really sure that's it's me you want?
But why did you pick me?
Because of convenience?
Because you were testing me?
Because you wanted to help me?
What were you thinking???
What if one of those guys told on us?
What if one of the guys managed to get a hold of me? What then?
What if I didn't go to see you? Will we actually get far?
What if I didn't get close to you?
What if we didn't meet?
What if I was already someone else's?
What if you did??
What if I didn't take my course?
What if I didn't go to THAT school?
I don't want to imagine them... A life without you... I can't see it...
It would be a nightmare... But I really want to know... Hear you say this...
You're voice explaining to me everything... The expression on your face as you explained... And finally hear you call my name in a sincere voice and tell me, 'I love you.'
