So as they say May 21 is the end of the world... Though I particularly don't believe it's that day might as well do this since I have nothing to do in particular yet.
I have tried being the good girl all my life that is until I reach somewhere in the middle of college. Hehehe :P Anyway, I was always the quiet, lonely kid in the corner of the party room.
So here it is the confession starts now when I was a kid till present...
(Being a kid...)
- I was an avid daydreamer who love adventuring, while no one was looking I'd always explore the different places I have been to. Yes, even my school. In my batch, I was probably the only one who knew the hidden door that leads to the school roof. :P
- I also liked making up bases and making traps pretending that enemy pirates/thieves kept on stealing my precious treasures. Even though it was only the Janitor who keeps on cleaning our mess up. Hahaha
- I had various dreams when I was young. I want to become a performer... A writer... A composure... An animator... A traveler... A lot of things since I practically had all the time in the world at the time... Or so I thought.
- At one point, I started liking Japanese Cartoons and it blossomed into wanting to learn about cultures and languages.
- Then I learn that I'm kinda good at Computers despite not being able to get a hold of one before.
- I also learn about people who betray you, people who back stab you, people who make fun of you, people who think you're just a target and others that I won't bother to recall anymore...
- My whole started to crumble little by little in front of my eyes and I couldn't stand up on my own. Even to save my own arse... Because I was told that it's better for me to just smile... I never let out my own voice... My own thoughts... The real ME that I have kept.
- I always believed I'd get saved by my own knight and shining armor... It was drilled in my head that it's supposed to be in the requirements of my parents... He should be of the same race, is rich and so on...
- I am a romantic and also worrywart.
- I am easily attracted to art, music and sports... And I envy those who can do them...
-My high school friends had always pestered me into going with them for lunch and break which I sometimes do... But most of the time won't...
- I started writing random things due to depression of my family and life that I can't have.
(during my college life)
- Was the only time I began opening... Believe or not... I wasn't the type who would talk... I was usually pretty shy and mostly a loner... But I became more inviting and open... I believed it was a new and fresh start... Of finding my true self that I had hidden all those years.
- I found myself looking in all places... Became friends with lots of different people... Had my ups and downs... Had crushes that were crushed along the way...
- I found myself a best friend who's like a sister to me. :)
- I decided to try to fall in love even if it's just a little while... And got my heart broken...
- I fell in love again with the man I had a crush on for quite a while before I met the man I dated...
- I began to drink but not excessively. just one or two bottles... 3 times at most in a term. :P
- I began to dream again about being a performer... Was shattered later on by my parents who wants me to just head some family business... That doesn't even relate to my current course...
- I started to hate myself for not being able to stand up sooner...
- I admire those people who live the life I wanted and envy them...
But I am thankful...
- I got the man I admired and have love for quite a while... And loves me back.
- I lived. (at least I can say that)
- I have a best friend now. (LOL and I don't doubt we are.)
- I have a rather... Interesting(?) bunch of friends. XD
... Hmm~~ I guess that's all. :) XD
